8/13/07 12:13am

So I basically decided that I will put up some of my older poems first, then I will start putting more up-to-date poems. This one....hmm....I'm not sure if I like it. Maybe you will? There was a LOT of editing done to this poem. I could barely read what I wanted to say in the end. Which reminds me...I feel like this doesn't conclude. Maybe I just quit. Why not finish it now? I honestly can't. I don't know what this was about!
Oh, this may be one of the last old poems I post..Or maybe not? It depends how many more old ones I deem acceptable to post.


Glorious summer, you faded.
You left behind the freckles and the memories.
Now I stand alone,
cooled by the last of the summer breeze.
Things change.

The ending means a brand new start.
I'm not sure if I'm ready.
Old friends gone,
but new ones come.
Things change.

It's getting colder.
The time has come.
Forget the past.
Dream of the new.
Things change.

I miss our friendship.
I miss the love.
I wonder how you are.
Let it go, let it go.
Things change.

-Me.

7/22/07

Here we go, same story as before....
I have plenty of work to be doing, but instead I find myself looking through my old poems again.
This one seems especially morbid to me, but it was actually inspired by a dream I had. I just woke up and was inspired...
I know, weird right? Well, here it is, enjoy.

Everyday is the same
suffering and grief
darkness creeps over me
bringing an overwhelming sense of fear
to the depths of my soul
The haunting shadows eat at my flesh
terrorizing me to no end
I want nothing more than to be back home
To be comforted by my chair
or to walk by the peaceful brooke
and think only of you
But no, I'm here lost
lost in my own world of sorrow and dread

I am hopelessly lost in this world
unlike any other figment of my mind
It's dark and cold
The harsh wind chills me to my bones
Beasts lurk through the forest
They snarl at my every move
I call out to you
but you are never there
I want more than ever to be with you
To feel your warm embrace

But time has passed by
like water rushing through a raging river
I knew your love would never last
We will never be again
You left me here in this land of agony
to fight alone all alone
You will never return again
I hurt so bad
I am losing this war
I am losing this war

I am beaten and bruised
drowning in my own blood
I need you more than ever
Take away this suffering
Drown this pain
Save me like you always used to
But I know you never will
I will spend eternity here
Until I am dead and gone
I will be in this lifeless land
No flowers, no birds, no beauty
Just what is left of my tattered soul
I guess you won't be saving me this time.

-Me.

9/8/07 (rain, rain, rain)

Currently where I live, it's been raining nearly everyday. The weathers been sucky, and so is my life...actually, its not completely horrible, but its busy as hell and so much is going on. So instead of working on all the things I should be working on like college applications, planning homecoming week and doing homework, I went through old poems I wrote. I am posting this one today because I love it. I feel that its very appropriate weather-wise and I hope this comes true in my life, I can be ok with the bad because something good will come of it. I don't know what was going on in my life at the time I wrote this, or any emotions I was feeling, but I'll post it anyways...enjoy!

I hear the rain fall to the ground
I see the lightning flashing
I walk out on the empty streets
And hear my footsteps splashing

I look around to see who's there
And only tall trees greet me
A silly smile comes to my face
My troubles are on third street

The sky gets darker with the time
The clouds are grey and gloomy
I wonder if the clouds can see
The gladness they bring to me

The clouds bring rain, indeed it's true
but raindrops bring the roses
A pretty girl will smile and laugh
He loves her and she knows it

Rain starts to slow, clouds leave and go
The storm gets swept to Greenville
I saw the good in all the bad
And now I see the rainbow

-Me.